back to here to post again. not feeling quite well recently.

fucking damn sian larhx.. tmr need face the reality again. i hate it man.

hate facing the fact of hurting relationship, stress of studies. alot alot larhx.

keep wishing tat i having my freedom now. how i wish tmr dun need go sch.

lets blog till here. sick and tired of my life.

I JUST WANT A SIMPLE LIFE.!!!!!!

izzit so difficult?

can say this is the first time i took many photos wif her.
more outings. i m so looking forward to JUNE holiday.!

today early in the morning wake up for my 2.4km run again. bcos last saturday i failed. when i wake up, my whole body ache. my leg damn pain. but still need force myself to run. meet cindy at the meeting point. we decided to run at 8am. today is my second run, and i failed again. damn dulan larhx.. second time already lorhx. first run, i mostly walking and my timing is 18min plus. today..second run, i mostly jogging. can say i jogged all the way and at the last part, i used chiong de. i also failed and my timing is 18.06. how can it be. the timing sure got problem. i think i not running le. i dun really care le. i try so hard but in the end still.... i m such a failure!

yesterday went out wif cindy, janli, chewshih and elizabeth. meet cindy at bedok inter at 10.45am and i was late. so sorry! she waited for me for 15 mins. so paiseh sia. first time go out wif her den i was late. sorry to janli also, as she waited for us also quite long de. me, chewshih, janli and cindy met up le. we went off to vivo city. shopping! after tat, went to harbour front to see one of the shop den have lunch at there. i have my janpanese food. rate: 4/5. haha.
next stop, we went to raffles city. cindy bought a bag from there. addidas de. nice! she got total of 50% if i m not wrong. and we met up elizabeth at there. Another stop, BUGIS. we love that place. when we reach bugis, it was raining heavily. so we went to arcade to play first. we have lots of fun there. after playing, we just can't wait for the rain stop to cross over to bugis street to shop. so elizabeth and janli bought an umbrella each and cross over to bugis street.
SHOPPING! SHOPPING! SHOPPING!
i bought two T-SHIRT.
cindy bought two T-SHIT also. same design but different colour and one short.
janli also bought something.
chewshih also bought something.
except elizabeth, she never buy anything.
bought those merchandise we wanted. decided to leave tat place le.
next, one last stop. we went to tampines 1. but chewshih never go, as she need to go home. tampines 1 was crowded with so many people sia. tat need security guard to be there. total i think got 6 level. there is COUPLE LAB there. i was so so so so happy. next time i wan buy things from there will be much more easier than go till plaza sing.
WALK! WALK! WALK!
our legs damn tired. decided to go home le.

i m freaking tired larhx. who can help me!? i tired of everything.
tired of ...
my relationship,
going to school,
doing homework,
doing my art.
just everything. i wan my freedom.
i dunno whether i can carry on till when. i may collapse one day.
hope someone will stand by me.

today........ haiis! early in the morning, my mood was so bad. due to him larhx. bloody hell. never mind. sitting at the parade square with mostly of my head facing down. my friends care about me and asked me why. my answer for them is just nothing. reading period, ms wong say care for ur loves one around you. i did. during reading period, my tears started coming down. i told myself not to cry, but i can't do it. after the released, i ran towards wendy and i started crying. i told her how i feel at tat time. finally i cried, i have been tolerating for so long le.
firstperiod is ART. went to art wif my eyes red. ms ng was shock. she asked me wat happen. in the middle of lesson, she asked me out to chat. i told her the situation i have. she say next time i got anything happen, i can go find her anytime. so touch when a teacher say tis to me. thanks ms ng. and wendy also say, i got anything tat i wanna say out and wanna find a listener can go find her.. THANKS WENDY! crying out everything i feeling much more better now. i will be netrual.

i have saved $36 only for now. still got more to go. when can i save up to about $100? saving money is so difficult.

blog till here. damn tired nowadays. no more freedom after sch. all i have are remedial remedial remedial. lesser and lesser time to be with him. will just tahan few more months and i thinking i will have even more time to be with him. heehx! so happy. stop being crazy and stop till here!

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recently, lots of things have been happening. haiis! in just few days, so much problems happening. i m tired! very very tired now. i can't manage my studies den now tis kind of thing happened. why will tis happen? wat happen to us? many ?????????????????????

from tis quarrelling, i think i have learnt something. in fact, many...

firstly, i won't tell secrets at all. unless to JoN. now he can be counted as the closest person to me le.a person tat i can share my thoughts wif. cos i trust him. he is my loves one. if i kept everything within me, i think i one day will go mad. hope he can understand me. i dun wish him to neglect me. DaR: iloveyou.

secondly, i won't trust anybody easily. tis time round, i will see carefully whether who can be trusted. wanting a friend tat can be trust and worth me to trust is so difficult. trying very hard to be learning independent, cos i know one day, everyone around me will leave me. i have once tis feeling. when i sad, nobody was there, accept kevin. he was there for me, conforting me but not others. i think tis is friend? now i like tat, kevin.. i m sry. i will just let off tis matter.

i will learn from my bloody mistakes. i will try to stop interfering and slowly get myself out of tis. sorry chewshih. i will try not to get into problems. i wan study le. i went for sec 5 is because of JoN, my parents. going for sec 5 due to some reasons. i dunwan waste my tis years. i have wasted much of my time already. due to never study when i m in sec 2, i drop to sec 3 NA. abit regret. now my aim is tat, I WANT GO POLY. going to the same polytechnic wif him.

i think my limit reaches a point le. i'm tired le. . . . . .

till here!

taken by chewshih.
sing sing sing
all taken by chewshih.. candid!


justin! candid also!

some overdue pictures at ktv.

let talk about today. something happen and was settle le.

everything went well as wat i was thinking.

haiis. everything counted as over le.. settled.

today spending my whole day at home doing my homework and draw some art pictures.

why must we have homework.? homework is for wat de? help teacher spending their time by makring? dun u thinking doing homework is lame? especially chinese hw? damn lame. wasting my time only.

after today.. no more time to relax anymore. our mid year exam starting from 5th of may.

almost everyday after school have remedial. currently there is no remedial on monday..

tuesday after sch either there is chemistry or physic remedial.

wednesday, maths remedial.. but next few weeks due to Mr. Ryan Neo have to go for his reservice, there will be no math remedial.. so happy.

thursday, end lesson at 3pm, den rest for half an hour den need go for geography test or social studies test.

friday, art day. need go for art from 1.30pm till 4.30pm..haiis. pathetic sia..

tat is my school life. haiis

i wanna quickly end my secondary education..

i wan freedom.

blog till here.. homework time!

Early in the morning woke up to go BEDOK TOWN PARK for my 2.4km run. After the run, i was not feeling well. i was squarting in the shelter, chatting wif cindy. she say she first time run so fast. Squating at there, DaR walked toward me to accompany and see whether i'm izzit okay! so sweet of him. He went to sat beside me, seeing not feeling well, he called me to sit instead of squating. =D sitting in the shelter resting. after awhile, before chewshih and wendy started their run, we [me, DaR, zhengwei] decided to went to mac. walking toward the 7-11, we saw eric, yoongkai, hanwei, zhengqun. so we asked them along too. they went mac and i went home to have a shower. damn sweaty! went down to find them again. and they decided to go HanWei's house to have fun. 12 plus left hanwei's hus wif DaR.

SORRY!..CHEWSHIH AND WENDY!!! i pangseh u both. but in the end we still meet up together.hahas. went to chewshih's hus to meet her and Wendy burn!. after tat we took cab to KTV! cos we are late. let me tell you, who went for singing session today.. [ ME, Chewshih, Wendy, ZhengWei, JunWei, Justin, WeiDong] having some fun.. but i miss my DaR. hais! went home at 7 plus. finish eating my dinner and now i m sitting in front of my computer to blog.!

blog till here bahx.