Today is the 20th of sep. One month from tat day my love one left me. I miss you. Yesterday been recalling about wat i have done in the past. Many friends of mine been saying that i have changed, i guess so. But i think nobody can understand me and know what m i thinking. i am going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everythings perfect, act like its just a dream and pretend nothing is hurting me. It's so hard for me to survive in this world. But i wan to get myself to understand that we are born to face all this mistakes, torture, reality and experience it. maybe tis is just the starting for me. Its weird how you go from being strangers to being friends to being more than friends to being practically strangers again.. and it all happens so fast. i hope from today on, i will never be looking back.

from fatpocket.com:
Girls, no matter how strong we are, we get weakened by this addictive and yet sadistic noun – LOVE.

Because when you love someone, you tend to mold into that someone he loves and what he wants you to be. It is inevitable. It is only natural, an unforeseen force. You may have a mechanical defense and say, “Never lose yourself when you are in a relationship” but seriously now; the only reason why you call your man, The Other Half, or The Significant Other is because he MAKES the other half of you. He completes you. He has become part of you and you part of him. Not only because of the existence of his love in your life but because of the person you have become to suit yourself in his life and yours to his.

Love is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without. Now all that i want is one guy who can prove to me that they're not all the same.

I'm back. Yesterday have a good sleep. replenish my sleepness. slept at 12 plus on friday night and wake up at 6 plus yesterday. it was a long sleep. rest the whole day.

Friday, have my physic and chemistry mcq exam for one hour but i slept for half an hour. really very tired as i slept at 4plus. not enough sleep at all. After exam, went to library to faster finish up my art. keep rushing all the way. from morning 9 plus start doing art till at night 9 plus. it was so tiring but still haven't finish it. the actual due date is on tuesday. still got so much to do.

short post. lazy to recall.

Yeah! I'm back. I got prelim for tis whole week and i gotta hand in my 8 prep work by end of tis week. seriously it is damn tiring. How can we cope our studies and draw art at the same time. No time at all. Haiis, i will just try my best to finish it.

Sunday, stayed at home to do some art.

Erm.. Monday, went to sch for SS exam. After SS while waiting for puayhoon for her mother tongue, me and shindy went library and slack and also did my art. After chinese, we went home to get ourself change and met up at Tampines Mac to study, i mean practice our maths. Justin and Junwei came along. Around 7 plus, went for dinner at Century Square, den walk walk, Home!....

Today, Math papers were difficult, for me.^^ I left a lot of blank. After paper, went to get change and met them. We went to Blk 201 there de mac to study chemistry. He taught me, trying to explain to me and gave me his notes to study. I tried my very best to study but due to Someone, i can't concentrate. He kept talking and disturbing me. Wth. But i am happy. weehx. damn high now. kept recalling about just now. They went for tuition and i went home. I didn't manage to went home early cos tk dun allow me to go. He asked me to accompany so i do so lorhx. So i only manage to come home now. Still havent bathe and immediately sit in front of my com to blog. too happy liao. hahas.

got to go already. receive a msg from Ms Ng saying tat tmr gonna bring those 8 black boards and those pics we need to draw. I only done a few. I'm gonna chiong now. bye.

Happy memories created by Him today. I m very very very happy. Can He gives me more happy memories? Can i have him back to me again? I hope he's mine again.

Hey! I'm back. lets starting to post about tuesday. Went to School for Art, didn't went for math mock test as MS Ng dun allow us to go. 3:30pm went fot chemistry lesson. went inter,ntuc wif cindy and janli. Wednesday, i was late for art for an hour. due to chemistry lesson cancelled, i went home. Thursday, went for physic lesson, damn fucking boring. after physic, lunch den art, den chemistry. After chemistry, library wif cindy till night. Friday, gave myself a rest. Didn't went for physic and art lesson and went out wif cindy, janli and chewshih. didn't took photo together. we met up at 12pm and went Seoul Garden for lunch. we had our lunch for about 2hrs+++. After tat we went orchard, chewshih went home. we went Far East, Cineleisure and Ion. After tat went Bugis. Me, cindy and janli, all bought tops for ourself. *happy*. went home at 8pm++. As for today, there is no art lesson. Stay at home doing nothing, just slack, slack and slack. dun wish to do anything. haiis. Left six more days for me to pass up my 8 black board le and yet i m sitting at home doing nth.. haiis. gtg. bye.

Now is 2:39am.. and yet i m still sitting in front of my com doing facebook quizzes and blogging.. plus later at 12:30pm i need to go sch and having math mock test at 1:30pm.. i'm gonna be a supergal. i did one facebook quiz, asking WHAT'S YOUR BIGGEST WEAKNESS? ans: jealousy.
it explain:

You envy others, but you are also confident about yourself. But sometimes you wish you could be confident about yourself without the masks. You clean before people come over, even though you are typically a mess. You dress up or wear revealing clothes, show off your tan, tattoos, and body, because you feel like it will get attention and make you feel worth something. Sexiness is something you value, but you really want to be admired for your heart. You want someone to see through the masks and love you for you, but you sometimes don't know who that person is and you fear opening up to someone because you don't want to be hurt. You wish you could be like someone else, trade places just for a day, to see what it's like to be perfect. You like lists and getting things done, but you rarely finish them. You want to be loved, so badly, for who you are and you're just waiting for the right person to show you that it's okay to rest in who you were made to be, and not who you are always trying to be.

i find it true.


i have not blog for quite a long time due to laziness. Wednesday and Thursday school per normal. Friday, i got my English Prelim 2 paper. i was quite tough, i thinki flunk it. After paper, was called by Ms Ng to stay back and talked to us about ART. We got to go for art for the whole september holiday. I was like WTF.! After tat, went home to get myself changed and meet Kevin, TugKeong and Don at CrossFire. Followed by Shindy and PuayHoon came to meet me. Have dinner, slack and home. As for saturday, went for Art den home. Sunday have a good rest at home. Monday, went inter wif my mother. Met Shindy 2 plus at CrossFire to go find TugKeong, Don and Yihao. blah blah blah.. After tat went to have some desert wif them plus Adam. Finish eating, all went seperate ways. All went home accept me and shindy went to study. TugKeong accompanied along. Around 8 plus went home, wash up and sat in front of my com, chatting wif YiHao, pet society, quizzes. . . . . . till now.


I'm really afraid tat i will influence my friends. I got no hope in studies anymore. I feel like giving up anytime. I wanna be strong in front of you all, but i think i can't anymore. Sorry to reveal my weakness side of me.

lazy to post.. i'm tired now.. going to sleep now. bye! ^^