today is my 92nd post.. so many days never blog.. my blog rotting soon. there are quite alot of homework, but when i reach home, i dun feel like doing any of the homework. after one day of school, it was so so so tired. even some lesson i will fall asleep. if i dun wanna have myself fall asleep, i will daydream.. daydreaming about happy things.. those lovely times when i m with him. yesterday, is quite an important day but i have ruin.. sad=(
i wanna change myself.. I WANT TO CHANGE.. haiis.. it is so difficult. i need time to learn from my mistake i have made.. and i also need time to understand you. i need time to change.
everytime i have done something wrong, i will start thinking.... why can't time just stop at our happy moments? why happy moments must pass it so fast? and while coming to sadness.. the time will pass so slow. NOT FAIR.!
now how i wish tat i finish my O's level.. haiis. after O's, most of the time i and him can spend together. we won't stress about anything. i wish i hope, everyday he will be by my side, alway be there for me when i need him, have my hugs and kisses from him everyday, accompany me when i m alone..
wish? hope? foolish to think about all tis bahx.
tmr will be basketball match against tanjong katong.. tmr i can't go wif him, take the same bus, sit beside him, lie on his shoulder.. bcos of tat stupid chemistry remedial.. why can't the teacher just put on other day? i dun feel like going. CAN I DUN GO? people tell me.
tmr is sean's birthday. HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY!
in my mind now, i just wan you be by my side all the time, but i know it won't happen.
i already very happy tat i can be wif u..
haiis.. i dunno wat to say..
i m just afraid to say anything again and get u irritated?
hopeless gal.
