today's outing wif lsb, i dun feel happy. although there are some parts which are happy, but mostly were unhappy moments. Met Jon at 1:30pm to go buy his present. den walk walk around den went bugis de arcade to find the rest. den headed to seoul garden. after eating, went Iluma de arcade play. den trained down to plaza sing. blah blah den arcade den home.
why happy moments, will alway be so short. i damn happy when i'm wif him only. he cook for me. he did turn around a few time to see whether i behind or not. but he doesn't seem tat he care for me. i feel miserable. my heart hurts, i can feel the pain. Am i still loving him? if tat so, i just wanna give up, cos i know there's no hope at all. why m i so stupid again. haiis. i tears all the way on my journey back home. its so paiseh, as everyone kept looking at me. but i can't control, as i kept thinking about every sec i spend wif you today.
i'm crying like fuck now. @#%^&$%&*&$.